Wow. I just got home from a convention. Last week I had uploaded photos of my new cosplay. Garnet. I love Steven Universe and I love her character most. She is wonderful, funny and so super duper cool, I thought before that it wouldn't be possible for me to do this - but mostly because of her special hair. I did not think of the skin tone as a problem.
And now this. I know people can exaggerate quite fast, especially on the internet. But I never experienced it myself in this kind of way. I know the black and white issue is very, very explosive. But I NEVER EVER intended to hurt anyone with this cosplay. I wanted to look like Garnet. I put most effort on the outfit. In the end, in time rush, I had problems finding fitting tights (for the arms), gloves and body paint. I think that my skin tone is not perfectly red-brown. I thought that even before this shitstorm came up (I know some of you won't believe me, though). But I was proud of the wig and I knew that on conventions there is often no time for good photos, so I wanted to have them before. I know that many of you won't accept this as a justification. You will find negative responses for every word I say, so I keep it short. I wanted to cosplay as a character I love. It's Garnet from Steven Universe. I did not know the word "blackfacing" until now. But now I do.
I am sorry for every negative emotions my cosplay caused in you. I did not intend to offend anyone or be racist in any kind of way. For me, cosplay is not a way to express any political or social statements. It is a way to show how much I like an anime or cartoon character. And I would never call myself a racist. It hurts when you do. I grew up in the very tolerant cosplay community of Germany. I have friends from all over the world.
When I was in Kassel, where the convention took place, cosplayers as well as people of every kind told me that I looked cool. The children loved it. So I think that the cosplay itself is good. I was very sad to see the reactions here. So I will delete my photos. But I will not stop cosplaying, or stop cosplaying as Garnet. I will paint my skin differently, but I will paint it because it belongs to the Garnet's design.
Please stop discussing here, I will not read your comments or respond to them.
Thank you to everyone who discussed for my sake or wrote comments or notes to cheer me up.